Mamazen

56 months

My Dear Sweet Ruby,

Last week you turned 56 months (and nope, I'm not missing a month, I"m just late!). You woke up on the 20th with a fever that lasted for 4 days and then lingered as a cold/cough and then I got sick and then your daddy so... well it's been a rough week.

You spent a lot of time sleeping.

Some time reading.

But most of your time sleeping.

You were a happy pumpkin when it snowed and you got to go outside,

but after about 3 minutes you wanted to come back in and eat snowcones.

Earlier this month we spent several days at the Children's Museum.

You explored the light brite again and

finally went to play in the water,

and it only took a few trips for mama to remember to bring a dry shirt for you to change into.

You've also been playing with flubber,

and painting with both sticky paint

 and regular. oh the sensory messes we get into!

Your daddy and I visited with a new doctor, a developmental pediatrician and she gave us some great ideas to help you sleep and to work toward more success on the potty. We really liked her and hope she can be a vital part of our rockin Ruby team in years to come. We'll be learning exciting things like Qi Gong massage to add to your bedtime routine and new sensory play ideas to help you regulate your body a little more. We've also started giving you a new fish oil, and even though it's yucky, you're doing your best to take it and not hate it too much (it helps that you get some chocolate at the same time)

We're also still in the huge prep for kindergarden. This gives mama much anxiety and many sleepless nights. However, no matter what happens, we can always change things if it's not working for you, cause in the end that is what matters most: you.

It's been a rough week around these here parts, but you're feeling better and the sun is coming back out (ok it's march now, we won't see the sun for at least 40 days). You are my most favorite person and you fill my days with laughter. When you say (completely unprovoked) "I love you!" I sometimes feel like my heart may burst, and yet it doesn't, it stays intact for yet another day of being your mama.

You fill me up like no other.

All  my love, Mama

Day 19. My views on religion and politics.

I realized I hadn't blogged in almost a month, and that I wasn't finished with this 30 days of truth (which is more like 4 months in my house) so I'm gonna get back at it. 

Religion: I was raised liberal catholic. At the ripe age of 19 I realized it didn't resonate with me and I left the church. I explored other christian religions and then in my early 20s realized that they didn't either. So I left religion behind for good. Once I was no longer searching for a 'church' I realized what I was searching for was a connection to something deeper, something more meaningful: I was searching for a connection to the divine. I haven't completely found it, but I have more spiritual connectedness now than I did when I belonged to a religion. 

Now, as far as what YOU think about religion? I don't care. I won't bother you if you don't bother me. i don't think you need to think like I think, nor do I want to think like you. I don't need your disgust, or your anger, or your pity, or your prayers that I'll start believing like you. Fair enough? 

Politics: I'm liberal. Socially, fiscally and with my curse words. I lobby for children, the disabled, the poor, the under-served and the unrepresented. I believe in taxes and social services and YES I wish we had nationalized health care. I believe we need more corporate responsibility and less money spent on war. I'm a LIBERAL - not just democrat. 

Now, as far as what YOU think about politics? I don't care.  I won't bother you if you don't bother me. i don't think you need to think like I think, nor do I want to think like you. I don't need your disgust, or your anger, or your pity, or your prayers that I'll start believing like you. Fair enough?