For many years, Mother's Day was a sad, hard day for me. I'd call my mama tell her I love her then curl up in a ball on the couch and wonder when it would happen for me. I'd shed tears for the child I wished for, and would secretly (or not so) be jealous of every woman I knew who already was a mother. One year, I was lucky enough to even start bleeding on Mother's day (yeah, that was a good time). Mother's day, other than being grateful for the amazing woman who gave me life, and the one who gave my my husband, was a day of loneliness and sadness, of wishing and hoping.
Finally, with a little luck, a lot of money and a science experiment, it finally happened for me. Pregnancy was a magical amazing time. I had no idea growing a person would change me the way it did. I saw parts of myself that I never knew existed, I became a mother.
And now, two years later, I'm the mother to a toddler. I'm the woman who carries play dough in her purse and wipes snot with her shirt sleeve. I'm the woman who opens Tings in the grocery store to placate the hungry kid who needs a nap. I'm the woman who wakes up 3-10 times a night to nurse or console a tired toddler. I'm the lucky woman who spends her wee hours of the morning snuggled up with the sweetest smelling person on the planet. I'm somebody's mother, and it's better than I ever thought it would be.
Happy Mother's day, to those who carry play dough, to those who leak milk, to those who do the morning car pool to school, to those living the dream. Happy Mother's day to those still waiting, to those still wishing, to those still hurting. Happy Mother's day to those who's wombs have lost babies that they wished for, to those who have yet to hold a baby they have conceived, to those tho ache. Happy Mother's day to you.
Beautiful, Korin, Happy Mothers Day to YOU!!! I remember a few heart wrenching Mother Days after I lost my first bebe. Oi. And then it started happening and now I'm like a baby farmer. LOL
Hope you had a wonderful day today!
XO
AmyMay
Posted by: Amy | May 11, 2008 at 08:10 PM
That is such a sweet post. I'm so glad you're a mama, cuz you're a darn good one!!
Posted by: Lee | May 11, 2008 at 09:30 PM
Happy Mother's Day, Korin. You look so beautiful with your pregnant belly...It is amazing how motherhood changes you. Such a touching post. Love you mama friend!
xo,
Nicole
Posted by: nicole | May 12, 2008 at 10:09 AM
((loves))
Posted by: kelly | May 12, 2008 at 12:14 PM
Korin-Happy Mothers Day. As usual you made me cry when you get real honest in your posts. I have loved reading your blog and I have loves reading for almost 2 1/2 years. I am that mother too. I am not dripping milk but I am that MOm in the market. Thanks so much!
Posted by: Rachel | May 14, 2008 at 02:08 PM
Happy Mother's Day, you! You are one beautiful mama!
Posted by: sweethomealagirl | May 14, 2008 at 08:01 PM
Aww....Korin. That made me so happy and touched. And YOWSA! That's easily one of my all-time favorite pregnancy pictures! You are a beautiful, gifted mama and friend. MWAH!
Posted by: Rebekah | May 21, 2008 at 10:34 AM