Well, truth be told my last post was less than joyous, no? Trust me, I'm not the same bitter, sad, angry person I was 4.5 years ago entering into infertility treatment. I'm bitter, sad and angry, but not the same bitter sad and angry. Ruby eased so much of that out of me. The mere existence of her in my life filled a void I didn't know existed until it was gone. Going through this again is a whole new ball of wax. It's almost as if I know MORE of what I would be missing. This failed cycle or loss or whatever you want to call it has brought up many feelings that have been silenced for a long time, and I don't know what I'm going to do with them. So... in an effort to walay some of that bitterness, I'm committing to Grace in small things. A local blogger I lost when my hard drive crashed in October and just re-found tonight posted about it and it spurned my interest. Hmmm, 5 things everyday to help wage a battle against embitterment? yeah, I can try that. So, here goes. We all know I'm not the best blogger when it comes to committing to these daily things, as all of my previous attempts have fallen by the wayside... but I'm going to give this a shot. If it takes me 4 years, I'll get 365 entries on this, I promise.